My Crazy Mind

One of the things I’m responsible for at work is obtaining the plans and specs. for upcoming jobs. This responsibility requires me to always be working days and weeks and sometimes months ahead of the actual date on the calendar. I have to get these plans and specs in as early as I possibly can to give the estimators enough time to properly bid them. Because of this I’m always looking ahead and working beyond today; it just puts time in a different prospective for me. Today is only October 14th but I’m basically done with October and already looking for and obtaining plans for November. If someone were to ask me what is happening today or tomorrow I usually don’t have a clue because those days happened weeks before in my mind. Thank goodness for my Outlook reminders.

One thing for sure it does tend to shorten the distance between point “A” and “B” for me. For example, on the actually calendar it is 6 weeks until Thanksgiving. I'm currently working on projects that are just a week or two before Thanksgiving and on one project that is after Thanksgiving! Yikes, that means Christmas is knocking on my door; can’t think about that today.

Another way I judge time is by the expiration date on milk. It goes like this. If I went to the store today and bought a gallon of milk and let’s say the expiration date is October 26th that tells me that when the milk is gone, which with only one milk drinker basically it will last until the expiration date, there will only be five days until Halloween. So in my mind it means I have 5 days to get the candy! I know crazy but that’s just how my mind works.

Things I Can't Change and Things I Can.....

There are some things in life we just can't change; which sometimes is the hardest part of living. Learning to live with that fact can at times be overwhelming. The simple act of letting go can be hardest thing. The phrase, "let go and let God" is a comfort and the words of encouragement I need to accept those things I can't change.

For instance, I know I can't change the weather. So I choose to enjoy each season, although I definitely enjoy some seasons more than others. I know I can't change the traffic. We are in plenty of traffic each day, although myself mostly as a passenger which is okay because (and I mean this sincerely) I do love the ride. Getting upset over heavy traffic is a waste of energy and is the only valid excuse I know for being late! See even traffic has goodness. I know I can't change the distance between Utah, New Mexico, or Kansas. If I could rearrange a few states or remove them altogether (sorry Nevada) that distance would be much shorter but alas I can't. But I can take every opportunity I get to visit those States or have those States visit me and am blessed when this happens. I know I can't change the fact that both my parents are now living on the other side of the veil. But I have felt their spirit with me many times since their passing and I do know that a time will come when we will be reunited. They are at peace and I am at peace in their passing. I know I can't change others to my way of thinking and that can be a frustration to me at times but that's not reality or even realistic or even something that I should really want to be. Differences are what makes the world go round; differences are what makes life interesting. Differences keep us on our toes. Differences make me think harder.

So what can I change? ME; plain and simple. I know I can change me and for that I'm most grateful. I know that each new day is a blessing and an opportunity to be a better me. And that to me is the most important thing I can change.

Words I Love and Why

There are some words that I just go for and here is why:

Obedience: It just makes life easier

Hope: It floats

Thankful: I am in all things

Prayers: Things happen when you do

Blessed: I have been..........repeatedly

Grandbabies: I can't live without them

Really: It's versatile - It's a question, it's a statement - Really

Attitude: Add it up and you get 100% - I like that

Different: I like being different - it just works for me

Thursday: It's like "Christmas Eve" every week

Work: I'm bless with it and by it

Dogs: They love me unconditionally

Laughter: I can't go a day without it

Just Me

I wish I could have become me sooner. I realize that the experiences I have had thus far in my life have made me be who I am today. But in looking back some of those experiences had to be repeated because I didn't learn the lesson the first time; I know shocking. But I have been blessed by my experiences as we know we will be; although I just didn't realize the magnitude of those blessings at the time. I'm grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who knew at some point I would "get it" and He kept giving me opportunities to get it right which in turn would help me become who I am today. I'm happy with the skin I'm in and welcome all of life's experiences that I might be blessed with.